You may have been there.. days when you don't know why you are where you are.. and why is it that you do what you do.. when you don't know why the world is turning the way it does or the news is as disappointing as it is..

and then..something like this happens:

Today as I try to put the stethoscope on the chest of my 90 yr old patient who has an adorable lady visitor at bedside, He whispers to me with a huge smile;" I'm going to ask her to marry me! I haven't yet because I was waiting to hear from you that I'm doing ok! You know I'm 90 and she is 92!"

Oh human element, You are precious!

In his pale face and sunken eyes, I saw the brave face of a man who cherished every bit of life...even when he was soaked in his own blood, our frantic cries and desperate attempts at stabilizing him by putting pressure on his cancerous wound, didn't stop him from winking at us and giving a thumbs up in gratitude...all it took was holding his hand, giving him iced water to swab his mouth and a TV to watch....

hours of bleeding and minutes in between, he would bravely face whatever the universe put forward for him.. with grace...with a wink and a thumbs up...

I have not written anything for 2 years and here I am again, staring at the keyboard; alone but aware...I am struggling to rediscover myself, to connect with the inner self of mine that I have lost in the past few years, a disconnect that has made my life so confusing...

2 years ago, I wrote about my new job and how I was lost in the beginning. Now I want to tell you how this job has shown me the true meaning of life. You may wonder, how can I say I have been shown the true meaning of life, and yet I find my life to be confusing.

Have you ever been lost at translating what you have found meaningful into the practicalities of a mundane life? That is maybe what I have found confusing. For now in order to rediscover myself, I have no way but to tell you the life stories that have touched me.. so take a moment if you have...